Tuesday, May 12, 2009

38 (or postscript.)

wormholes and spatial divides.

so two and a half weeks swallowed by the city. everything moves fast, but i move slow, or slower. i've heard the words "more relaxed" and "comfortable" to describe my return to the cityscape. i'm not interested in a fanfare for my return, and so far i've escaped one.

i have more undetermination than i've had my entire life. i'm not confused or lazy or unmotivated, i just have a lot to figure out and that is okay with me. i have time to figure it out, myself, my life. i owe it to myself to take that time and not be consumed by obligation. if there was one important thing i learned in costa rica, this is it. and i have four months to take it one day at a time.

slow and steady, one day at a time.

The real voyage of discovery
consists not in seeking new landscapes
but in having new eyes.
-Marcel Proust

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

37 (or packing up.)

My final weekend in Monteverde was filled with being outside and having fun. Sitting in rocking chairs sipping wine and playing Trivial Pursuit at Bobby's Decahedron in the middle of the woods. Saturday afternoon he had a barbeque as well and I spent the afternoon in the hammock soaking up the last bit of sun and god dry season weather.

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There was also a big festival in Cerro Plano, starting over the weekend but went through the following weekend. Bull riding, ranchero tricks, dancing, carnival games, churros, and little tiendas. So between the BBQs and the festivals, I'd say it was a great time to take in the final pieces of Monteverde life.

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On Sunday there was another big BBQ up by Bromelia's at this guy Dario's house. The weather was perfect, the feelings were perfect, and I know that it was the best feeling I could have, at least the one to leave on. Things were sweet, I want to go back. I got out of my shell. I made a lot of really great friends, residents, in the Monteverde community, and I'm really going to miss them a lot. Quite a few of them I really didn't start hanging out with or getting to know until my final couple of weeks. But one of the good things about technology is that it keeps these networks open, so I don't lose this friendships completely.

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On Saturday we had our Film Fest at La Feria of our documentaries on local farmers, as well as one about traffic in Monteverde (in the vein of Koyaniquatsi). It was a big day for La Feria; it was it's anniversary! The normal hustle and bustle was still there, but it was great to see so many people to join us in our corner for the film festival, or even just stop by and applaud. A few of the farmers we worked with have stands every week, so I think it was really nice to hear them talk and feel good about their work. I felt good watching it all, at least. Along with these presentations, on Monday and Tuesday we had our community symposiums at the Institute. These were the big ones we worked up to the entire semester, it was scary and surreal to think they were actually there (and that as soon as they ended we'd be gone). The turnout was pretty good, but I know the Institute wants to see more community involvement, and struggles with it. But these symposiums were better than the last, so it takes one step at a time. I may have a job working with this after I graduate. Who knows?

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After the symposium on Tuesday we went to Anibal's for our last bonfire. Periodically throughout the semester Anibal, our course coordinator, would have get togethers on his family farm. Sometimes to work on his house (which he was building at the same time as being our coordinator AND being in school in San Jose), other times just to play. So this was it. Hot dogs and marshmallows, beers, climbing around a half built houses and being silly. Almost the entire gorup was there, along with a few of our professors, and I really, really couldn't have had a better group of people to have this experience with. Matt mentioned this in his blog, but the group dynamic of a pilot program requires something unique from each person, and our group had something really special. OUr relationships with our professors, as well, were way above the call of duty for them, and I appreciate all of it. I'll really miss this.

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In case you don't believe how beaten we were from the work, this is Matt, pitifully exhausted, but still trying to have a good time.

We were all pretty ridiculous at the end. Quinn being ridiculous:
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But at the end of the day, well, it's all love.
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With all the work finally over, Wednesday was our one day to run errands and pack. It wasn't actually a free day, becaue we had to be at the Institute by 3 to do evaluations and have some final wrap-ups. I spent the morning with Emma roaming around Santa Elena buying last minute things and eating Tres Leches cake by the old bank. The weather was turning, it was cold and damp, like when we first got there. After finishing up things at the Institute, we had our Family Good-bye banquet at the Friends School. All the families were there and it made us remember how much of the community we impact. Monteverde is so diverse in it's community make-up, but everyone here, tonight, was who kept us grounded in our time. WHo we came home to every night, who made us dinner, taught us Spanish, made a home for us. Ariel started night classes that night so he couldn't be there, but Mari was there. Everything was beautiful. They had two piñatas, one for the little kids and one for us. I could stop laughing. It was so cute.

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Thursday morning no longer was a far off pinpoint on an itinerary, it was here. There isn't much to say about it. Maribel made me a big plate of plaintains with natilla and pineapple. She gave me my favorite mug (she had two of them), so whenever I drink coffee I can think of Monteverde. Ariel was a jokester as usual, and while we all had our qualms and issues, I really did become a part of this family. I saw how each one of us grew. After Evelyn picked up my bags I walked down to the high school where we were meeting the bus. Maribel walked with me, since her work is on the way. She cried the entire way.

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What is there to really say about San Jose? We ended where we began. We went out for a nice dinner, puttered around the hotel, had our last gallo pinto breakfast (which was nowhere as good as our families' gallo pinto, for sure), packed, and flew away. We were torn from the roots without any decompression, but we all ended well. So I don't know what's in store for us.

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The first chapters of lives almost made us give up altogether. Pushed towards tired forms of self immolation that seemed so original. I must, we must never stop watching the sky with our hands in our pockets, stop peering in windows when we know doors are shut. Stop yelling small stories and bad jokes and sorrows, and my voice will scratch to yell many more, but before I spill the things I mean to hide away, or gouge my eyes with platitudes of sentiment, I'll drown the urge for permanence and certainty; crouch down and scrawl my name with yours in wet cement.


So I woke up in my own bed Saturday morning with a feeling of lightness. I'm taking it slow and steady, but that didn't stop me from getting sick. It's been nice, though, the return so far. There's a shift in weight. It's all familiar and easy, but I feel a foreignness. Resistance and acceptance are balanced. My heart will tell me what's right.

Get lunch with me and I'll tell you everything.

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

36 (or turbopower.)

The last organized, whole group field trip we had at MVI was at the end of March, to the Tilaran Windmills. This trip was my highlight of the semester, I think, or the one I was most excited for. In Nicaragua I had my breath taken away by that windmill, and it was an indescribable feeling of me, small and human, against this massive, majestic wind turbine, in the middle of an expansive grassland and empty blue sky. We stopped at a farm along the way and had lunch.

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After that trip we were on our own. Most of us had a lot of work to do on our final projects for Environmental Sustainability and Topics in Ecology. For Environmental Sustainability, we were working with local farms who used a biodigester and lombricomposting to produce methane gas to use (or sell) the leftover as fertilizer. SO we visited two farms, Gaudy's and Carlos's. I don't think I could have picked a better project, working with them. Our team produced a 9-minute documentary on biodigestion (IN SPANISH!) and I'm super proud of our work. Hopefully I can get a copy of it. In the meantime, here are some snapshots!

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Mid-April was Semana Santa, or Easter week. Originally, week was supposed to be a bit of breather. NOPE. Almost all of us ended up working straight through it. Way bummer. At least I got one day off. Maribel, Ariel, and I went to Mari's family's farm out in Turin:

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On Easter Sunday, Janelle, the director of the institute, had us over for a picnic. We made Easter eggs and hid them for the little kids, and took a little trek down to the river:

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EASTERBOSQUE

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After Semana Santa it was the final crackdown on work. We were at the Institute 10-12 hours a day, even spending most of our weekends there, so we had to also come up with small activities to happily get us through the day. Like hiking to the fig tree or baking.

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The last in the series, but certainly not least, the final weekend and goodbyes.

35 (or monteverde.)

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After Nicaragua I carried my camera with me everywhere.
Here are some splatterings of Monteverde, outside the Institute.

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My favorite breakfast, really. natilla, plantains, coffee in my favorite mug (which my mom ended up giving me!! she had two.)

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This is my mom Maribel with her boss's daughter.

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Brazel. By the end of my stay he thought of me as his older sister. He's the best.

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That's my brother. Four months is a very small time to know someone, but he grew so much over my time there. We all did.

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That's Freddy. He's my uncle. I think Brazel took this photo.

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Esteban. When I got home from Nicaragua there was this boy staying at our house who was helping Ariel at the Lavacar. He's 21, believe it or not. He was a really great addition to the family and made me feel super at ease.

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Here Mari and I are picking frijoles on Freddy's farm with his two kids.

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I spent too much time here.

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This is from the time I learned to play Canasta at Dulce Marzo, my faaaaavorite coffee shop/bakery in Monteverde. I spent many afternoons here playing cards, or Trivial Pursuit (1981 GENUS EDITION), or just gossiping with Katie, the barista.

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La Feria. Farmer's Market. Saturday mornings were spent here.

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Post office! DIdn't spend too much time here, compared to how often I am at a post office in the states. I really just loved the design of it. Despite the fact that Costa Rica doesn't really have an address system, it's pretty good with mail.

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Alejandro.

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That's Raul and Diego, Alejandro's roommate. They play music sometimes and were jamming out at Diego's tienda.

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Diego and Amy! I only had the opportunity to get to know Amy for a month before she left Monteverde to move to FRANCE for three months before school, but she really was my right hand for that time.

Speaking of Amy, we went on an adventure to the Monteverde Reserve. Here are some photos:

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Stacey is from Canada. She was also a volunteer at Creativa, where Amy was volunteering as well.


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Continuing on, this is CALLIE! He was the first friend I made from the motorcycle gang. He rode from Portland, OR to Monteverde and was hanging out for a month before heading back to the states. He took me to climb my first fig tree

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Milan. Also motorcycle gang, but he and Andrew were continuing on to South America, hipefully getting to Chile or Argentina This is him packing up.

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Andrew. I really miss these dudes.

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Speaking of DUDES, here's a crew for you. Yanni, Dario, Andres, Orlando, and Gerry. Awesome.

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Anna and Gerry.


NEXT UP: Windmill farm, Semana Santa, Finals at MVI, and summer-age.

34 (or colors and oceans.)

SPRING BREAK 2009


San Vicente:

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Palo Verde:

Hiking the dry forest in Palo Verde

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Sunset bird-watching

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Lake Nicaragua:

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Grenada:

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San Juan del Sur:

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Playa Junquillal:

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33 (where we left off.)

Okay, so, I left off at the beginning of February with photos. But maybe I should just start from the beginning.

First week:

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Group Orientation:

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At MVI:

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San Luis Coffee Farms:

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San Gerardo:

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amphibian judgement day with mark

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bed and breakfast

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at the estación

oh, hey. this is cool.

so good.

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the catarata crew

Okay, so that takes us through the big trips in February. Next up is spring break: Nicaragua and Playa Junquillal. I'm saving all the family things for their own entries.

Monday, April 20, 2009

32 (or 1000 photos later.)

Back in the United States.

I arrived around 2am Saturday morning, collapsing in my bed at my dad's house just as I expected. Woke up with an odd feeling of detachment. This feeling will last until I collide with the reality and weight of my departure.

collision is such an ugly sound.

The end of Costa Rica was nothing short of sweet. Well, in some ways it was, I suppose, since I was leaving. Our last Saturday morning we had our agricultural film fest at the farmers market and it felt so good to see the final products and so many people form the community watch and comment. On Monday we had our Oral History & Material Cultural symposium and every seat was filled in the auditorium and people made comments and asked questions and had discourses about our projects and that's what this is about. It's about the community. Matt and I decided last minute to present bilingually ourselves and I am absolutely, absolutely thankful for his friendship and comraderie, in the classroom and outside of it. 100 percent. On Tuesday we had our big, intimidating ecology and anthropology symposium, which went well, despite being 8 hours long. And from there we packed, had our final goodbyes, and were torn from Monteverde. I walked with my mom down to Santa Elena on Thursday (she was going to work, I was going to the bus) and she cried the whole way down. I need to call her this week.

Socially, the final week was filled with bars, fiestas, BBQs, slip n slides, hammocks, salsa, and being pined after. Pura vida. I learned how to act out this concept. After three and a half months, the life wasn't romanticized anymore. It was just life. It was just living. And it was healthy, with or without the charm.

When I got into Charlotte I started crying, and it is the only occasion during this entire farewell process where I did. Everything was so bright and loud and mean.

Luckily DC and Baltimore are not so much those things. The people, I mean. Saturday I unpacked and cleaned and James picked me up and we went to Baltimore to see Good Luck. They closed with 1001 Open Hands and right before they played it, "This song is for HIllary from Max and it's about being positive about the future." And I think I can do that. I think I can be positive. I feel this shell around me, but I think it will become more malleable as the days go on. What I liked most about Saturday night was that I was not overwhelmed by "SO HOW WAS IT TELL ME EVERYTHING BLAHSLBADDSSK." It was just a "hey, nice to have you home. let's hang." and that's it. Once I get settled down I will want to tell everyone about everything, but I don't have the capacity currently to really...to talk about my trip. I'll get there though, I promise.

As I said good-bye to Yanni last weekend, he said something along the lines of "whenever you feel bad, you will be able to return." And right now I don't feel bad. I ask for patience, though, allowing me to go slow with my reentry. But my heart will let me know, let me know where I will go.

huge, HUGE photo posts coming within the next few days.

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