In four weeks, I leave for my semester abroad.
I will spend four months in Costa Rica at the Monteverde Institute.
This blog is to document those adventures.
Today I attended the pre-departure orientation my college gives all students going abroad.
I realized I have to start making lists again and be more thorough in said lists.
Funny, because with thoroughness comes simplicity, at least this time.
The past couple of days were difficult for me; they were filled with overwhelming emotional anxiety, triggered partially by the stomach flu inhabiting my body over the weekend. My mom read me two chapters of The Wind And The Willows over the phone, and I cried throughout, falling even deeper into a panicked state. This anchor will not be accessible in a month. When the fear hits you, it's terrifying. The goal of going abroad though is to get over those terrors, am I right?
I'm not someone who typically shows a weakness for travel; I've gone on tour across the country, spent multiple weeks at a time thousands of mile away on the west coast, go to college...but some part of me says that this trip is much more consequential. Is it though? It's longer, that's for sure, and I will be in a cloud forest, not on a friend's couch. It's just a moment, a blip of insecurity, and on the days when I feel healthy, I know this experience will absolutely RULE. I know that when I'm sick, too, but less stoked when I'm a physical and mental wreck.
Expect and assume nothing.
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